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I hate my Neurologist… I waited like two hours to see the guy and he brushes me off in what seemed to me like an impatient manner telling me that I just need to continue with my medications. Since he didn’t see anything wrong with my EEG results he pronounced that I was just suffering from Migraines. It was more like a sentence to a life of suffering and torment since there is no cure for it.

It seems to me that doctors are not particularly eager to see patients who are referred by their HMO’s, and I think that is because they are not paid outright and they would have to wait till all the paperwork is processed and stuff. Since I’m on the topic, I also hate it when doctors prescribe those absurdly expensive medicines, probably because they have an understanding with some medrep who promised a hefty commission or a trip abroad or something.

I now hate it when people use the word Migraine when they are suffering from a simple headache. If they only knew what it really is, I doubt if they will use it loosely. These days a good day is when I don’t get a migraine attack (which is really rare) or even if I just get a mild attack that doesn’t last that long.

I spend a whole lot more time sleeping these days just so I wouldn’t have to deal with the pain. But I sometimes wake up with a really bad headache, and it reminds me of the reality, that I now have to live with this.

This weekend has been Maddening. I met up with an old high school friend last Friday. I knew when I got that text message that she was having problems again. I sometimes wonder if I have a sign on my forehead saying “call me if you need help!” Its funny how some friends only call me when they are in trouble or in need of something. I had no intention to… but I somehow got my self into trouble because of that. It’s a bit complicated and I now need to find a good exit strategy.

I spent Saturday teaching First Aid to a bunch of kids. Now when I say kids I mean college students, applicants actually to my old college org. It was productive but a bit tiring specially since I didn’t get much sleep the night before. There was also this one particular girl who for some reason seems to feel so uneasy around me. I don’t know if she is of afraid of me or if it’s something else, but it’s obvious that she is uncomfortable around me. I think its only fair that I mention that I do have a reputation for being strict and uncompromising during trainings and I have this style that intimidates a lot of people. Oh well it’s her problem…